Make Peace with your Bullies

There is a quote I came across that said

“Work on being in LOVE with the person in the MIRROR who has been through so much BUT is still standing”

My nature is to 🔹encourage🔹 & 🔸affirm🔸& sees 👀beyond what another sees in themselves. But most of my life I was my own WORST BULLY! Come on somebody can relate to this?????

I loved my life pre-cancer 🌹

I was excited for my future 🌹

I had made some bad decisions but overcame, forgave & took inventory of myself & took the initiative to walk through the good, bad & ugly about myself & accept me with mistakes & all.

Cancer is such a thief & the worst type. It is a betrayal of your own body & each step from the initial diagnosis, the treatments, the pain, the unsolicited advice to the ringing of the bell bc it’s “over” is a slow fade of the person you once were.

You believe it’s over and breathe a sigh of relief.... 

To your surprise it’s rejection keeps poking at you, reminding you of what has been lost and you must make a critical decision at this point. Do you look behind and try to find some semblance of your old existence? Or do you step into the unknown which comes with all kinds of “fun” emotions & start something new?

It’s been 3 yrs now since I heard “ you have cancer” I have waned through a myriad of emotions & dusted myself off & stepped back into this journey called life. 

✨I’m a lil bit banged up, but not broken

✨I’m different, but the same

✨I’m fearful, but not frozen 

✨I’m less tolerant, but more patient 

✨I’m beautiful, but not perfect

✨I’m richer, but not in material thgs

✨I’m stronger, but not as muscular 

✨I’m older,but younger in heart

✨I’m scarred but still sexy

✨I’m lost, but more found than ever

✨I’m uncertain but totally hopeful

✨I love my inside & outside

✨I’ve fallen a lot, but still standing

TODAY I choose to see me the way I see others! I have made PEACE with my bullies ( I’m sure there are still some hiding) & instead of fighting, avoiding, or shoulding on myself I embraced all of myself! I look within and up to receive my affirmation rather than outside!