Can I break up with my body?

I have wanted to break up with my body💔

Finding a skilled, proficient massage therapist who listens to your body as well as your journey is critical for healing. I have used some wonderful therapists over the years and learned a lot from several of them.

Cancer put my body in a foreign state and my love of working out hard, pushing my limits, my athletic mindset has found its hands up in a position of surrender.

When you have always been active, the thought of stepping back, or slowing down is like a death to your soul. You get through cancer ( or illness or chronic pain) and you believe that eventually you will be the same and do the things you once did.

💔Not always the case and it’s like a heartbreak to me💔 “This is my body NOW” you think to yourself. The path of that reality is met with frustration & grief over what’s been lost.

Now this is not the end of the story!

Along this journey I have gone through several different therapies and treatments to regain some of what was lost and also to come to terms with what will never be again.

This is HARD stuff!😩😫😒

A year ago I stopped everything, I refocused on my nutrition and lost 25lbs in a few weeks with a few small changes. I exercised by doing rehab & walking. Anyone who has known me can understand how unusual it is for me to not be found running, at a gym or trying a new workout to challenge myself.

This has changed my strength and my perspective on who I am now. For most of my life I set a goal that was physical and I disciplined myself through consistency and creating training protocols that were effective and I always seem to achieve what I wanted to do.

That didn’t work any longer. I had to completely let go and wait....walking would cause me pain, lifting weights for my clients would cause me pain and then this would trigger depression and insecurity... how can I motivate others to reach their goals when I feel like I can’t even figure out what to do with mine?

🦋Here is the HOPE, the take away, the silver lining...🦋

Is my body different? YES

Are there things I may never be able to do again? POSSIBLY

The question is do I have the perseverance to keep trying? ABSOLUTELY

I study... I research....and I create a team of people who are bringing me back for the comeback!

Maybe it hasn’t been in my timetable yet I see things changing in a positive way & as I continue to heal from the inside out this will only make me a better personal trainer, nutrition & life coach and educator for those I am here to help!